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Every year Lone Peak High School in Highland, Utah does a service project around Christmas time; they call it “Gold Rush” and it’s a fundraiser for a local cause. This year they asked us if we could be their “cause” and donate some of the money they raise to Jacob’s medical expenses. We were blown away. Really, blown away. Still kind of blown away, actually.
“Gold Rush” is a bunch of events, including a dodge-ball tournament for students and teachers, a Christmas dance, and caroling in front of the local Wal-Mart, among other things. Tonight (Thursday, December 1st) they’re going to do something called “Kids in the Cold.” A bunch of teenagers are going to hang out in front of the school—in the freezing cold—in an effort to raise some money. Only teenagers would endeavor to raise money in such a way, and I love them for it! Last I heard they were going to keep their student body president locked in a box until they raised the desired amount. Again, only teenagers.
Me, Scott & the kids plan on attending (for a little while at least) to offer some moral support and maybe some hand-warmers and hot chocolate. It’s the motherly instinct in me. I can’t just let them sit out in the cold. Their own mothers must be shaking their heads right along with me. But again, I’m grateful for it. Over the past two months I have learned some wonderful things about teenagers, including how unreserved they can be and what big hearts they have.
And we’re just amazed that they would help us in this way. That being said, however, I have debated whether or not to even put this on the blog. Let me tell you why. I have realized recently that we are not the only ones who need help with medical expenses. Neither are just cancer families the only ones that have a difficult time finding money. Others in my very own neighborhood—with different medical challenges— face the same financial struggles we do, but don’t often get fundraisers like this. I’m so grateful, but it seems unfair too (not that life—or money for that matter—is ever fair). Do you see why this is difficult for me to write about? I’m just keenly aware lately of all the difficultly all around, in everyone’s life. I guess this whole experience with Jacob’s diagnosis has made me a lot more concerned and compassionate. Empathy borne of experience, you know? But compassion is a good thing to have, especially at Christmas time. And I guess even if I can’t offer money or make everything fair, there are still things I can do to help those around me. It definitely takes more than money to get through hard times.
Oh sweet Sara, only you can make me both laugh and cry in the same post!! I went from laughing at the sight of teenagers hanging out in the cold-- just for fun-- and your motherly instinct of shaking your head... To crying at your level of humility and still wanting to help and give to others in your time of need. I think, especially at this time of year, we become more aware of the needs of others around us... And yes, I'm sure there are others who need help as much, or more, than Jacob and your family... But I think you can still humbly accept the money, donations, etc knowing that they are coming from a person who has been so touched by you and loves you so much that they feel it's the least they can do... And someday, when all of the cancer has been taken care of, and Jacob is strong and healthy once again, you find others to help as well. And knowing you, you will love and serve 10-fold that which you receive. honestly, (and this is just MY opinion)... The simple fact that it is JACOB-- a sweet, innocent, perfect child of God... Breaks my heart and makes me want to give the shirt off my back if necessary... Because no CHILD should have to suffer. (not that I'm saying adults should suffer... But a little child??? It's heartbreaking to think of). Having taught a little boy last year who was in remission from leukemia (and named Jacob, ironically)... This news touched me deeply. I did not know this boy when he was in kindergarten and had the cancer... I just saw him after he was done with treatment... And he was the sweetest, most tender hearted boy in the world... And times like that, we all ask "why?" it has been great to see so many teenagers doing so much for Jacob-- it has definitely changed my perspective on them, that's for sure!!! (just now as I was reading this, I thought--- for a split second-- that maybe I should teach high school!!! But that thought quickly left!! Haha). Just know that your family is very loved and we are all praying for you :)
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